Did I spell that right?? Whatever...ok, here's the deal. I've been bad. Very bad. I've been ashamed to admit it. Have admitted it a few times on the NSBB, but under others posts...never my own. Not only have I gained back 10 pounds by eating extra crap I don't need, but I stopped exercising. :-( I have no idea what is wrong with me. But I do where I went wrong. I was all set to get right back at it after I got home from our Honeymoon, but ended up getting so sick for 2 weeks, there was just no way for me to exercise. I did good at first with eating right, but a few days into being sick and then finding out I had "allergy induced asthma", all of a sudden I was hungry 24/7. It was weird! I was hungry every waking minute. I thought about food non-stop. Usually when I'm sick, I don't eat much. But this time, I couldn't stop. And it got to the point that I no longer cared. I started out by adding in some extra protein to help with the hunger pains....but it never seemed to help. And I craved EVERYTHING! Candy, then salty foods, then greasy. I couldn't even taste as my taste buds were gone, but it didn't matter.
After I was thru being sick, I told myself enough was enough - get back on the 100% plan and back on that treadmill. Did the treadmill for 2 days then stopped again! argh...I do great during the days when at work with the water and food...it's when I get home that I go nuts. But I need to get back at 100%. So, starting today, I'm going to post here everynight if I was 100% or not on water and food. And whether or not I did the treadmill or any form of exercise. I now have 30 pounds left to lose and not just 20. This has got to stop. Up and down has gotten real old, real fast. I have a bad back and I know that if I can get this extra weight off my middle, it will stop pulling on my spine and I will feel soooo much better.
So, if you all can try and check in on me here to make sure I'm doing my daily post about if I ate 100%, I'd sure appreciate the support. Only I can do this. But it's nice to have everyone cheering me on too! :-)
I'm also sending a daily email to my best friend (MOH from my wedding) letting her know what I'm eating and if I cheat her and you all will know as I plan on saying so. This won't work unless I tell you everything I'm putting in my mouth.
So for today - Monday - I was 100% all day!!! yeah! I finally did it! One whole day of only putting in my mouth what was on plan! By 4pm at work I had finished my water. I had one diet soda with dinner, and I just finished drinking 2 more 8 oz glasses of water and now i'm off to bed.
No exercise today. But check this out - I ate only what was on plan and I didn't die! I didn't eat out of boredom, I didn't faint from hunger. LOL..I'm ok! Not eating grease or junk didn't hurt me! I don't know why I think I will suffer by not eating crap, but I SURVIVED!! Yea me! LOL...plus I made my food for work already so I won't be rushed in the morning and late for work again.
Thanks in advance for keeping me accountable to you all and especially myself!
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3 comments:
Jan - Good for you. You realize the problem and are getting back on track. Congrats! That is a first step in the right direction.
You know, you hit on something about posting every day - to help us make you accountable. That is one of the reasons that I try to post every day. I don't really have time for it, but it makes me think about my weight loss plan each and every day. And I feel like I need to report to all of you to help me stay on track.
Think about how many of us NS bloggers don't write for a few days and then the first post back is a confession. An "I ate this pizza" or "I drank this margarita" post often shows up after a couple days of silence, right? Posting every day, whether its about NS or not, at least makes me think about it.
Of course, none of us can make you post or help you stay on plan unless you want it to work. We can nag you and harass you and say "Jan, where the hell are you?" But none of it will work unless you make it happen.
You don't need to be 100% on plan for it to work. 95% will get you there. I find that planning my 5% "cheat" gives me something to look forward to. Maybe something like that will help you to.
Congrats again for getting back on plan. I look forward to your post tonight. And I am going to hold you to it. I know you would do the same for me.
Bob
Yeah, I'm good at beating the shit outta bad girls (and I'm most positive Amanda is, too).
Plus, I ain't sending your fat clothes back, so you don't have anything to wear ... so THERE!
You are already on the right track by standing up and admitting where you went wrong. You will be fine!
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